I have been a mom for 12 years. I have been a mom since I was a teenager. I have dreamed of being a mom my entire life. Now that the boys are getting older and my youngest is almost 7 (cry), I am finding it hard to know what to do with myself. It is like empty nest syndrome, but without the empty nest. My arms are empty though. No more sleeping babies to rock, no more afternoon cuddles. Unless I can hogtie one of them long enough to steal a hug or kiss on the cheek, there are no more cuddles for me.
So where is the me in being a mom? She has been lost somewhere all these years. Thrown into the background so that I could give every drop of attention to new baby after new baby. Now the babies are gone though and little men are taking their place. They still need me, but more in a “Hey, can I have $10 way.”
I have taken steps recently to get “me” back. I have taken more pride in my appearance. Now, if I don’t have makeup on each morning I feel naked. There is an interest in fashion and clothes that wasn’t there before, but part of me still feels lost. I am thinking of taking up some activities and finding out what I am interested in. Unfortunately, having children so early on pretty much made me friendless, at least locally. I have tons of online friends that I get to see a few times a year, but no one locally because I never got to build that platform of friends before having children.
Now is the time to discover who I really am and what I really want out of the rest of my life. After all, there is life after babies, or so I am trying to tell myself. Are your babies getting older? How are you dealing with finding yourself again now that they need you less?